My reminder of my 2016 One Little Word
So when last we left off with this story, our cattle shed had collapsed and the future was uncertain. I can’t say as much has changed. The insurance did not come through. (Bye bye, Farm Bureau!) We won’t have any beef to sell at market this summer. We haven’t decided on chickens yet but if we do raise any, we will probably only raise what we have orders for and no extra’s. And we’ll have just a limited number of beef quarters to sell next fall.
My intention was to spend the first few months of the year Doing Analysis! Making a Plan! Instead, I just sort of let. it. be. Let myself sit with the idea of letting this chapter of our lives go and starting a new one… or not. I still love our little farm, but sometimes you have to let one thing go in order to make room for another. I feel like I even foretold the answer to myself in this blog post, almost exactly 11 years ago, which concluded with “I don’t know if our little Sugar Creek Farm business is the destination on my journey into agriculture. I have a feeling it’s only a stop along the way.”
I admit I’ve become somewhat jaded about agriculture since I wrote that post. And I have always felt it – that the farm, the blog, were not the destination but rather an important part of the journey to something else. I just wish I knew what that something else is.
So bear with me if I use this space to figure that out. This blog is one of my most cherished possessions, simply for the record it’s been of our lives. I love reading through the archives and seeing what we were up to on this day in the past. It makes sense to me to continue on here, even if we don’t continue on with the farm.
I watched a video by Mike Dooley yesterday, and one thing he said stuck with me:
“You teach best what you need most to learn.”.
So my writing in this space may take a turn towards that… the things I need most to learn right now. Things like,
how to change directions;
how to get over the fear of putting yourself out there and being subject to criticism;
how to “art” (yes, that is actually a search I typed into Google);
how to make time for writing;
how to revive a rusty cast iron skillet
Not even kidding on that last one. I read something about a potato and salt, and I’m totally going to try it.
As humans, no matter what our age, I believe we should always be learning something or we might as well just dig ourselves a grave. Tell me, friends, what do you most need to learn right now?
11 years ago:
10 years ago:
9 years ago:
I spent my evening…
Garden, March 28
8 years ago:
Good for what ails you
6 years ago:
Things making me happy this week
5 years ago:
I feel sad about your indecision and the angst of being in that place. I also am hoping that you decide to continue. Your products are so needed. I personally will support you in any way I can. I tell everyone about the quality of your chickens.
Oh no! I had no idea all this was going on. I’m so sorry to hear it. If it’s any consolation, we love our beef. We were so looking forward to buying grass-fed beef from you for years to come. We received a chicken as a gift and it was scrumptious, too! I’ll certainly be watching for updates on your future plans and wishing you all the best.
I feel like we are cut from the same cloth Kelli. Every sentence I read of this blog post I found myself wanting to respond, nodding my head, and just plain getting it. I LOVE that quote you highlighted– it is so true. I think that is why I’m teaching yoga right now. I KNOW I need it in my life, for both the physical and the mental aspects. I love that you have always realized that the farm, the blog, was leading you on a path to something else. I admire your patience on just letting it be. Seeing what happens. Because we can plan, and analyze and plan some more, and most of the time, life throws us a curve ball and we just need to make a new plan anyways. Kudos to you for trusting in what is to be. Love reading your blogs and hope you do make more time to write. You were meant to.
Oh you guys, you have me in tears! Thank you. Even though this is what makes making a decision so hard! I absolutely treasure our customers/friends and love making a product that you love.
I am always proud to know you. I know I am not very close to you, but I have always known you. You are so passionate with your farm, as a mother, wife, in your music. All that you do! I am so excited for you and your new adventure or for your adventure to go somewhere new. Sending some love your way:)
Nikole, thank you so much! I’m so glad we’re cousins 🙂 And we should revive those Metz reunions your grandma always put together <3